Dreams of a Baby, Nightmares of Pain For as long as I can remember, I’ve always wanted to have children. However, the thought of childbirth terrified me since I was a child. Perhaps it was the dramatic stories my mother told me about giving birth in communist Poland, or maybe it was the phrase “that’s nothing compared to childbirth” that I kept hearing whenever I hurt myself as a kid. I love nature, but when it comes to physical pain, I never saw the point in suffering. I didn’t want to think about it or see it, so I deliberately avoided birth videos and stories from other women. At every…